Sunday, March 23, 2008

Today, mom called me. I told her about my study plan next year, which is to get diploma in England. Wasting so much money in UK serve as a stepping-stone for my entrance in England top university. It’s always my hope to get into one of the top 10 universities in England. I do not have much faith in myself and am really afraid that I really cannot make it to there. I don’t want to waste my parents’ money and my time. Studying in Singapore really create lots of unnecessary though i did really learned a lot (like being selfish and kiasu) in Singapore. Is this what i want for my life? Is this the happiness i’m pursuing?? Is this what so called stress an indicator of success?
There is time when i feel like giving up everything, but i can’t. i need to support my parents in future or even the whole family. I need to ensure that I can earn enough money so that parents will have faith in me and can trust me and not getting those unnecessary worries and to return all the money that they have given me nobly. Getting to UK may be a new start of my life, my new chapter of life. Besides my family and the few closest friends, everything will be a whole new thing to me. maybe it’ll be a good thing to me as i can forget all those bad memories i had in Singapore. I need changes, change that can make me into a better person!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

maybe mom is correct, i need to concentrate and really focus on my studies.
i'm deproving while looking at my friends improving. i seriously need to adjust my priority and ignore whatever that would intervene my studies and will not have any help to my academics.
not to say A, which is my ultimate target, now, even to pass subjects like economics and gp is seriously a big problem.
when i told myself that this will not happen anymore, i tend to let myself down eventually. i dont hav enough dicipline and perseverence to hang on.

i seriously need to change my attitude. cause it ultimately determine my altitude! plsss.... juz one more year of real hardwork and next year at this moment, i want myself to be smiling =)

Monday, March 17, 2008

huey chyi and me cam whoring


hui kuan and me

At A' Cut Above Salon

Friday, March 14, 2008

today, i'm truly, deeply disappointed and am really sad.
maybe it's my fault to be so cool towards u for our 1st few dates.
but, i seriously need some time at that moment.
now, when i'm prepared for everything, u had let me down...
though i cant say i love u (i'll love u in future and when the r/s is stable) but for sure, i like u and i want to be with u =)

Monday, March 10, 2008

guess i'm too busy to hav a good rest.. i'm really not in a good mood..
dad being not considerate enough, mom not as supportive as i wished, bro not as corperate as they are.. i'm depressed.. juz wish to leave to stay away from this place... which once i love it and miss alot..
now, everything change. maybe i'm the one who changed, not u all. i shld not blame u guys.