Today, mom called me. I told her about my study plan next year, which is to get diploma in England. Wasting so much money in UK serve as a stepping-stone for my entrance in England top university. It’s always my hope to get into one of the top 10 universities in England. I do not have much faith in myself and am really afraid that I really cannot make it to there. I don’t want to waste my parents’ money and my time. Studying in Singapore really create lots of unnecessary though i did really learned a lot (like being selfish and kiasu) in Singapore. Is this what i want for my life? Is this the happiness i’m pursuing?? Is this what so called stress an indicator of success?
There is time when i feel like giving up everything, but i can’t. i need to support my parents in future or even the whole family. I need to ensure that I can earn enough money so that parents will have faith in me and can trust me and not getting those unnecessary worries and to return all the money that they have given me nobly. Getting to UK may be a new start of my life, my new chapter of life. Besides my family and the few closest friends, everything will be a whole new thing to me. maybe it’ll be a good thing to me as i can forget all those bad memories i had in Singapore. I need changes, change that can make me into a better person!