Xuan's Confession

2011-12-24T08:01:00.000-08:00

it is christmas!!!! my first real christmas in germany. well, i got what i always wanted this year, and that is my best christmas gift of all.

so i celebrated christmas with Daniel's family here in Berlin. it was stressed. but i enjoyed everything. hmm... if you would ask me how is christmas in germany, i would say it is almost the same as our chinese new year's celebration. the differences are foods, culture and beliefs. So, on christmas's eve, they will prepare nice food and gifts. ohh, the most important thing is the Christmas tree!!!! it is totally fun to set up christmas tree.

we always only get to see the fake christmas tree in asian, but here, it is real!!!! they are humongous and the tree gives out some special scent, which gives us the feeling of Christmas. More pictures will be uploaded later. Merry Christmas!!!!!!

2011-03-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

after so long... i think i will start blogging about my life again.

there's alot of changes during the time of which i did not blog. well, it is true that the only certainty is changes. living in germany indeed is an eye opener for me. i learned so much about life and new thoughts keep flowing towards me until i do not have enough time to digest every of them. i hope i can jot down every of my experiences into my scrapbook. but somehow, that would never happen.

i am lost in the outside world. i do not know what i should do right now. my path is just so dark for me. i do not know if i have made the right choices. i do not know if i should continue what i have started or start all over again. i think the answer lay deep within my heart, but somehow i am just too tired and afraid to face it all by myself.

can anyone please give me some motivation??

2009-10-29T06:03:00.000-07:00

2009-10-20T21:34:00.000-07:00

why do we have feelings and tears. why are we made to shed tears with broken hearted. how do we know that we are sad?

is it simply tears rolling down our cheeks with sadness?

what is sadness and why are made to be sad?

2009-10-18T22:41:00.000-07:00

been quite busy and lazy lately. was wondering around the internet, doing nothing, managing happy farm and barn buddy, then go back to studies. my whole body is aching now, coz i played kickballs (do u know wat this game is??) it was fun only when there's sun. its autumn now. and the weather is very nice. u see colorful leaves everywhere you go. especially when im on my way to school. i need to walk through Namsan and the view i enjoy are like the picture below.

Namsan pedestrian path

Namsan Tower

oh ya, and im going to taipei this coming Friday. i will be only spending three days in Taipei. Nevertheless, im so so xcited about this weekend trip! looking forward to it =)

and wat's next?? hmm, Christmas vacation!!!!

2009-09-27T22:52:00.000-07:00

i just called my mom, knowing that she just had her great experienced in her life. and now she's enjoying time with the kids and the family in Genting. when i heard that all of them are having fun up there at the peak, my heavy day just out of sudden become so lighthearted. everything just seems bright, and i hope this kind of feeling can last FOREVER!

now i have so many things to worry, and i really hate the feeling when u need to worry this and worry that. it just feels like it will never end and i will keep worrying and struggle until my last breath. is this worth it or not? when i choose another path, and it is necessary to undergo all this? i start questioning myself whether my brave act started to become an escaping route?!

2009-09-25T04:36:00.000-07:00

so, its autumn in Korea. after school and hanging out with my friend, i went to Lake Park with Taya. the park is walking distance to where i live and its very beautiful. lots of people said that autumn in South korea is very colourful. maybe it's still early now, the trees are still green and oni abit yellowish.

the lake that we usually walk around.

can u spot the moon?

trying to capture the moon into the scenery.

this is Taya, hello, wat r u looking for??

am having break now from my german class, becoz of Chuseok day in korea. Chuseok day is a thanksgiving day in South korea.

and am now busying with my german school! rargh!!!

2009-08-27T06:05:00.001-07:00

i went back to the hospital and get my report. it was not life threatening, but it is life torturing. =(

2009-08-25T00:47:00.000-07:00

i actually have lots of picture to upload, but i dont have some of them. i'll upload those later. meanwhile, lemme show u guys some. this is a picture taken last saturday when we are on our way to meet Taya to decorate a cake for Linda. She's leaving to India soon and so, there's a farewell party held at Linda's place. actually i was kinda excited cause i never been to a shop where u can decorate the cake by avoiding the steps to make cake. it was always very troublesome when one think about making cake and personalized them to their loved ones. right? when i entered the shop, i was amused(see below).

those pictures which are hanging, is crazily beautifully decorated. of coz we wished to be able to decorate sth like them. (please sont be horrify by our artwork later! lol)

i think she's the shop owner.

u can see how good her business is.

we choose our ingredients here to decorate. cake is already prepared and even nicely coated with icing. so out job is just to personalized them. isnt fun??!!
we choose stars, choco chips and greentea chips.......

Taya trying very hard to do her best while the other 2 guys trying very hard to ruin her efforts. LMAO

planning what to do...

tada, our artwork!!!!!!!!

i know it doesnt look nice, but we hav tried our best. decorating a cake isnt easy.

as u can see, the shop was quite crowded. it was really fun coz u can fool around when decorating with no worries of cleaning all the mess we did!

to be continued....

2009-08-18T02:26:00.001-07:00

trip with my baby in SEA. it was a 2 weeks trip and we dint actually take lots of picture. we did lots of fun things and of coz shopping!!!!!!!!! shopping in Bangkok was crazy.

2009-08-14T20:00:00.000-07:00

sadly, i have to admit when one is alone, one will think about the happiest moment have had.

and apparently, my happiest moment was staying in the hostel, with friends messing around and crazying, doing random things like saying last minute, lets go for movie or lets go out for lunch. it was crazy but fun. it was a waste of time but the most unforgettable. it was meaningless by then but the thing we all now crave desperately now.

i wish everything could be rewind and freeze.

2009-08-14T09:29:00.000-07:00

im listening to 988 in Seoul.

just quarreled with him again.

it should be a talk actually which was to help him and to let him realize it.

but ended up me sitting in front of the pc alone, crying...

listening to the song makes me cry even more, i want to call wing hing, but i cant reach him.

he's the only one which i can cry to.... now, in Seoul, i have everything, but its HOLLOW!!

2009-08-08T23:48:00.000-07:00

for one weird point tat i wanted to post is that i miss life in singapore.

true tat i used to hate life there and can't wait to escape away from it. and now i'm away, far far away from it, there's a tingling sensation that reminds all my memories in singapore.

at this time, this moment last year, i might be sitting at the Novena Square's Satrbucks with lengshiew, studying and gossiping and drinking my hot cafe latte. or maybe i'll be in the hostel, studying or taking my nap. suyi may be studying in the study room, xinyi might be at the library, yineng mightbe hanging out with aunloong.....i really miss those days. although it was stress and very undesirable, still those are the moments that defines me and which shapes me into what i am now.

if i were in singapore now, i would call everyone out for gathering, if not, at least i would call each and everyone of u guys.

can u guys send me your contact number to my email so tat i can call u guys? i lost all the contact numbers because i changed my handy.

i miss u all so so much!!!!

2009-08-05T22:39:00.000-07:00

one month of my vacation ended just a blink, as if yesterday i just left Korea back to my home sweet home. well, i really spent lots of quality time back in my cosy little shop-house with my family. on 5th July, i went to Perth. and i was really excited cause im going to meet friends i havent met for long. though its a few hours flight, its like sitting on the plane for decades, i cant wait to hop off the plane and said 'hello' to my friend. when i saw him, and i thought my great journey in Perth was going to begin soon. However, things dint end up the way i expected. i dint really enjoy my 1st week when i was there. cause most of the time, i was just staying in the house. and then, i start questioning myself whether i shld go back Malaysia spending time with my parents. i have sacrifice my time with them to come and visit and have fun with him, but it dint end up that way at 1st. so i was rather disappointed. i'm sorry if that week i've been using up your internet allowable usage, but please bear in mind that im in the house for the whole day, i dunno how to make ur dvd player work normally and internet is the only entertainment i got by then. i woke up at 10am and i tried to wake u up, but then u ended waking up at 8pm for that day, so tell me what should i do?! besides surfing and entertaining myself with internet.

i want to apologise if i used lots of electricity. but i really couldnt stand the cold. at least can u please try to think on my side for once. i came from a country where the temperature is as high as 35 degree celcius. but out of sudden, i was in a winter country where temperature at night is like less that 10 degree celcius, somemore in the house is much colder, i really got sick for the 1st few days. i dont want to be suspected being infected with swine flu because of the symptoms. lol. and i really appreciate if u can understand this point. =)

and yea, i dont mind u teasing me or having me nicknames. but just make sure u dont do it in front of people whom i'm not tat close with. because i'm a girl who needs some respect too. it feels like ppl calling u a loser in front of ur schoolmates. me being consent doesnt mean that im not hurt. just try to be more sensitive to others even if they are close to u.

oh, i am trying to get the contact u wanted. but dint see him online these few days. i'll try my best to get it for u.

dont feel offended. im sorry if i had. and i'm in korea now, will send u the phone no soon =)

take care.

2009-07-14T02:25:00.000-07:00

all pictures are in reverse order. lol. upload them wrongly. so yea, the bottom part is our dinner's desert, omfg, its fxxking good as it is serve warm in such a cold weather!

the is the apple strudel pizza. very very yummy...
one is the prawn pizza and the other is satay chicken pizza. omg, i cant believe its so so GOOD!!! can i da bao back to Korea??
hmm... i prefer Singapore flyer. but zong told me it looks really nice at night. coz it is all white!
The bell tower in perth. nth much special.
in the botanical garden, King's Park. isnt the glass bridge looks nice? hehehehe..
at Cottlesloe(corrected by zong -__-) beach.

this one at the bottom, Fisherman's delight cost AUD$27.5 omg, its around RM90. how can i live here. lol
the seafood pasta, not really nice, in fact, it has weird taste. and it cost AUD$20. lol. Marinara Pasta

cute little puppy!

though it was nice weather in the afternoon, at night, it is friggin cold. it went as cold as 1.5 degrees celcius. shaking cold...

2009-07-12T02:49:00.000-07:00

hello!!!!!! the weather was not reallly nice for the past few days. but now, im enjoying the clear blue sky... letting the sun to burn my skin. lol

food is nice, people is great, and weather is friggin cold.

i'll be back this coming friday to msia. i kinda miss the hot humid weather.

i love this place..... clean and quiet.
isnt the river clean and refreshing?

really nice. my 1st time of having 'creamy' cocktail.
zong and his sis at the lounge
zong @ his backyard
my 1st meal cooked by zong!!!!!
jing with her freshly baked cream puffs.
they are good at kitchen!
this is beautiful Perth!! Lolx

anyway, cant wait to see my baby this coming saturday!!!!

2009-07-09T02:52:00.000-07:00

dint do anything much today. juz some reflections on myself and some TVBS shows.

there's always a moment to feel like this.

right?

2009-07-07T06:23:00.001-07:00

hello, am now in perth, at zong's house.

it's really cold here and i really like the place.

foods are great and people like zong is really nice=)

hope everyone enjoy their day to the fullest!

2009-07-02T02:12:00.000-07:00

hello everyone. im back to ipoh!!! hooray. have been eating, eating and ... eating. lol

really afraid that i'll gain weight.(actually, im gaining!!!! T_T)

i missed all my new friends and old friends. time really flies and the past few months, i've been moving from Singapore to KL to Seoul. been really busy moving around, study, making new friends and keeping in touch with old friends. below are some random photos taken during the past few months. please enjoy!!!!!

shirley and biang, on our way to Wangsa Maju to have dinner!!!

anna and alexis taken while celebrating Anna's birthday!

biang's friend, i call him 'hong zhong xiu ye'. he loves taking picture!

as u can see, the three of them, really like camwhoring in my room.lol

my brother.

my dad and my mom at my dad's orchard.

my dad's precious trees...he takes lots of efforts to maintain and grow them.

leng shiew came visit me when i was in singapore. this is our favorite dessert. yummy..

yummy.... saliva dropping now..

on our way to shopping in singapore. it was a hot hot day like now!

well, i miss all the moments i've spent with my family and friends! and more yet to come! =)

2009-06-11T05:49:00.000-07:00

i dont like this feeling. coz i know i did something guilty.

i hate myself for not being able to be there for Father's day.

his hardworking figure keep on flashing in my mind. i cant control myself.

im sorry for not being there =(

im sorry.

2009-06-03T03:24:00.000-07:00

hello!!

i juz got my airticket to return to malaysia! so excited! because im gonna meet all my friends once again. hooray!

hmm, having been staying in south korea for one month, it makes me realize lots of differences between Korea and South East Asia (Singapore, malaysia). do u guys know what's the difference? well, i cant say which is better, because they all have their pros and cons.

FIRST,

Women in Korea are really PRETTY! maybe that only apply to 70% of the women, however,almost all women here dress to kill. whenever i go out into seoul or nearby my apartment, 85% of the women wear heels (sexy killer heels)! heels here are darn cheap. juz 19,000won for the cheapest pair i ever saw in seoul (macdonalds here cost around 11,000won for a meal, so u can imagine how cheap the heels are) the design and the quality of the heels is average for 19,000won. i think to get the same pair in msia or s'pore, u would need to pay RM80 or SGD45.

another reason they are pretty because 70% of them had plastic surgery. even guys go for plastic surgery in korea. so can u imagine how popular and normal plastic surgery is?! one of my classmates has done plastic surgery on her nose and eyes. my classmates told me that it is very very normal to 'alter' the nose and eyes. and thats one of the reason why all the koreans look similar.

p.s.: im not against plastic surgery.

SECOND,

there's lots of delivery service in South Korea. almost every restaurant here have deliveries to every single house. the problem for us is that we cant speak korean and so we cant enjoy this special service available in korea. =(

THIRD,

everything here is monopolized. companies like LOTTE and SAMSUNG almost control everything. its very difficult to get foreign brand groceries here. for example, u cant really find colgate, maggi, etc. there's even samsung car here.and do u know that Korea is the only asia country which does not have IKEA? i try to search if there's IKEA in korea so tat i can get sth from there, but, i cant find any of them!!!!! OMG! am i living in a globalised world or where am i living now?! (i know im in korea, but sometimes, its too foreign for me! lol)

FORTH,

i love the transport system here although its expensive. apparently, its more expensive if u use bus compared to subway. why? because bus is much faster. why? because there's a special lane on the road where only bus can use them. isnt that cool? i think this is a great idea. if the government wants to encourage people to use public transport, then they have to make public transport unique and worth for such as having their own lane from the other private transports. this certainly helps lots of us to stay away from unwanted and undesirable TRAFFIC JAM!

FIFTH,

TO BE CONTINUED...

2009-05-25T04:04:00.000-07:00

here are some pictures taken in South Korea. enjoy =)

2009-05-15T01:25:00.000-07:00

i ended my A1 German course in Kuala Lumpur. and going to korea in May was a random decision which came true. after my exam, i flew to korea and thought of having a nice break while waiting for A2 to commence on 11th May. after the 9days in korea with him, i started to feel bored in korea.. i cant stand the food here. i was quite excited that i was actually going back on 11th.

but then, i called Goethe Institut (Kuala Lumpur) to check whether anyone registered the class and to confirm whether it'll starts on 11th. i called them on thursday 7th May 2009 and they told me that there was not enough participants and so we'll hav to wait till maybe the coming wednesday (13th May). i freaked out coz they need 7 ppl to start the class and there's only 2 registered. i dont want to waste my time waiting them to start A2 Level, so i called Goethe Institut in Seoul for more information of studying there.

p.s.: i extended my stay in korea because i was told that lesson gonna starts later than 11th May.

the next day, Friday (8th May), i called Goethe Institut (KUL)again. They told me they were not sure about the classes and THEY ASKED ME TO CONTACT MY FRIEND TO ASK THEM TO JOIN THE CLASS! im like wth. isn't this the 'whoever' works inside Goethe Institut's job?! i discuss with my bf and so i decided to take the Diagnostic test in Goethe Institut, Seoul.

At 1st, i was kinda reluctant to stay in Korea and hav my German course here because i really cant stand the food here and i cant speak any Korean at all!!! but then, i cant bear it when i thought of doing nothing at all till September. but when i was in the institut in Seoul, i really love the environment. the institut situated in Namsan area. its a really nice place to study.

i met new friends in my class and they are all Koreans. Koreans really love to study and they are really hardworking. compare to the classes i had in KUL, the students here are really serious and diligent.

transportation system here is really good, but its too expensive for me. i almost spend 5USD daily juz on transportation.

2009-05-12T06:22:00.000-07:00

每次你都把我整得很無奈．我很想哭．
我知道自己很被寵，我無法忍受你的大男人主義。
傷心＝（

2009-05-05T08:13:00.000-07:00

hello from South Korea!

it's my 5th day in korea! everything has been so great to me.. im happy and contented. =)

weather here is so nice and i enjoy it alot!

things are always good when u're with ur loved ones!!

take care everyone, and will update very soon =)

2009-04-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

when everything seems fine to u...

it was raining heavily one stop away from my place. i thought, gosh, i gonna be all wet when im in home. why it must rain NOW?! but then, when the train stopped at my station (setiawangsa), rain stopped and its not even drizzling. happy ^^ saying to myself, im lucky again.

when u know someone care about u all the time, i tell myself again, im so lucky.

when u know that friends will always be there for u, i know im lucky to have u guys and saying thank you is never enough!!

when there's nothing much to worry, carefree and understand ur own role, life is so much simple and lovely.

smile even when u're stress....

be grateful when u're lucky and when u know someone care about u....

im thankful!

2009-04-21T22:58:00.000-07:00

im so sick now... maybe im juz too stressful of my exam on 30th April.
i must pass the exam and failing the exam is a big no no....
argh, give me the strength to pass the exam.

2009-04-18T09:06:00.000-07:00

if nothing goes wrong, i'll be going Korea again to see my baby!!!!!!

woohoo... i'm so excited!!!!

2009-04-12T18:31:00.000-07:00

guten morgen!

life in KL has been great for me. i have been studying my german language, hanging out with friends and also met lots of new friends.

pardon me for not updating quite a while. coz it has been crazily busy!! with all the gatherings and outings i had here in KL, it makes me dont even hav the time to study sometimes. i love life in KL here, its so much fun and friends here never let me down in making me happy!

the past week, i have been maintaining a healthy lifestyle. morning i make my own breakfast and lunch (sometimes i hav my lunch in the school's canteen), lesson starts till 1.30pm and i'll be back around 2pm. but most of the time, i've been hanging out after school. lol. i know it's tiring and time wasting. well, its fun! i'm usually back by 7pm. cook my own dinner and then i'll head to the pool around 8pm. around 9pm, i would juz take a hot shower and talk to my baby till midnight. if i can tahan till 1-2am, i'll study and do my homework. basically, thats my life and i love it!! heheehehehe....

i'm so happy now not only becoz of my life here in kl, but, its so special becoz i'm so contended with my baby!! miss ya ;)

2009-04-01T00:14:00.001-07:00

got an email from my friend. hmm, i think everyone shld hav seen this before. just a reminder for all of us =)

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering howlong you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at allfine.
When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more thanthat.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy ..

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who ... kissesyour forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky heis to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

do u guys think the above is true??

2009-03-31T06:50:00.000-07:00

sometimes, u feel that people just take u for granted.
there's nothing much u could do.
maybe jus wait and see when they will realize it.
or maybe i shld give up, stop waiting and just move on...

2009-03-29T08:07:00.000-07:00

i moved into my new condo in Setiawangsa, SeriMaya. It is a great, nice and quiet place.
juz finished unpacking my stuff again and now, i am so tired. need to do my homework which is due tmr!!!! argh!! (time is just not enough for me)

actually, today i took a train back from Ipoh to kl. it is my 1st time to take train. i was quite excited to be in the train, especially when there's friends which u're close too joining u. so i met shirley and her brother at the train station. this train station was built in 1917. it is a very nice building, all painted white. we boarded the train and yea, we were lucky because we got the seat with tables, and i can study all along the way. we thought we were lucky enough until we found out that the air condition broke down and yea, no AIR CON!!! wth. it was really suffocating and i sweat like mad!!! argh, i cant stand it anymore. shirley and i decided to check out the other cabin, unfortunately some cabins encountered the same problem and some cabin with air conditions are fully occupied. ok, we gave up looking for an empty seats, but we dint give up with the air con. we decided to seat on the floor in a cabin. so we dont care, carrying our laptop, enjoying our movies on the floor. lol. it was quite an experience and my butt was aching. lol. anyway, we finally reached kl central and we moved our way back to home.

there's 2 new housemates. they are really friendly and we hav some chitchat. wat is interesting is that they are from Germany. omg, wat a coincident!!!i mean it will be a good chance for me to learn german people and to ask them everything about germany. at the same time, i think we could exchange a lot of culture and ideas which would be great for me!! they are really nice and friendly. i'm really grateful to whatever that happens on me right now!!

tchus =) have a nice day !!!

unpacked my stuff, talked to my baby, and now, i need to go back to my work. i love my new room and new housem

2009-03-17T18:49:00.000-07:00

hey people!!!!!!!! i have been quite busy these few days. moving down to kl, then getting use to the complicated street here in kl, learning my new language--deutsch, and cleaning my new rented room. rargh... time is just not enough for me. i really want to have extra time to catch up with all my friends here in kl and also with my most loved ones.

hmm, somehow, all of us get really tired and eventually, we ignore how others feel. we all care about ourselves and we are often inconsiderate to ppl around us. i was quite upset last night and try to hide my feeling by just forcing myself into my study mood.

ppl who care me and wants to know about me, they will read my blog. i just wanted to say, Thanks =) i cant live without u guys!!!!

Have a nice day!

2009-03-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

today i have a cold war with my mom. i was quite childish and was planning to spend my night in STARBUCKS. after watching a very lame movie, my mind was finally clear an then i decided to go home. ahh, wat a stupid day i had..........

so tired of crying and regretted.

i need to change, seriously!

2009-03-06T03:40:00.000-08:00

成績沒有想像中理想，有點失望。

甚麼心情都沒了。以為會放聲大哭一場，但我沒有。

在朋友面前，我撐住了，笑了。

在媽媽聲前，我壓住淚，崩潰，辜負他們的心。

我真的抬不起頭來面對他們，因為他們都對我充滿信心，我辦不到的信心，現在破碎的心。

很想大哭，把心裡的不奮，的不爽都放完出來。

身邊竟然沒有一個能讓我安心哭出來的朋友。

你竟然一通電話都沒給我。我最須要你得時候，你在那裡？

我身邊最親的人都不懂得安慰我，還有誰呢？

絕望中的失望。

p.s.： time will heal.... i just need some time, understanding and care. no worries.

2009-02-28T21:34:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i went to Taboo Bar with one of my besties. we were lost for 45 min under the drizzle. it was a disaster coz my hair was wet and my make up was getting smudge. we met a guy, E who was going there too. so, there we start to become friends. =)

we walked here and there... and finally, someone who knew the place and were going there led us the way!!! yay, finally, after an hour of search, we reached our destination Taboo.

chilled out there and dried up myself there. lol. luckily i dint get sick from the rain and air con. unfortunately, E was sick. hmm, i felt so bad coz i couldnt do anything to help him feel better.

we ordered 2 jugs of Gin with tonic. yucks, it was disgusting. but E likes it and H was ok with it. i swear i would never drink that again!!!!! omg, i'm feeling that taste in my taste bud now! yucky.. E, I dont unders10 why u like it.....hahahaha.

then we danced and shake everything out. it was fun and crazy! i totally enjoyed it. but then, the liquor started to dominate me. i felt sleepy. i juz wanted to sleep at that moment. but couldnt leave until E's friend was here. coz we could not leave him alone there. thats no good..

finally E's friend, S was here. lol. i really wanna dance and stay there but was so so sleepy and tired. argh!!!!!

anyway, i really like spending the time with my friends. but i miss talking to my baby..

2009-02-27T10:08:00.000-08:00

relaxing myself at the TCC

NICE oloong tea

with cheese wedges

thanks for celebrating my bdae with me!!!!!miss ya!

2009-02-26T22:30:00.000-08:00

yesterday met Marie, Hiok Yeong and James. had great fun and it has been three months since we last seen each other. we miss each other so much and there's never ending talking and sharing session. we went to liquid kitchen at upper thomson road then to Marrakesh Bar at Clarke Quay. it was crazily fun and we met new friends at Marrakesh bar.

new friends from Arab.

in the cab, heading to Clarke Quay
hiok, i know u're short... muahahaha... and small!!!
the food is so delicious. with my mango frappe, yummy!
hiok and Marie....
cute Marie at Liquid Kitchen...
it was a happy night!! miss u guys!

p.s.: leng shiew, stop being so wuliao.. lol

2009-02-23T02:26:00.000-08:00

heyya everyone. sorry for the late update!!!!!! have been really busy with life. hmm, its the good way of busy coz i really enjoy those moments i had. i also hope u guys also have great time in ur college or working or sleeping or slacking... lol

anyway, here are my pics. but not the gathering pictures. paiseh. =__=''

coz my macbook got some problem and everything is reformatted. so,pls wait till i get back malaysia. so sorry.......

hmm, the pictures are not in order, they are abit messed up. lol. but i do hope u guys would enjoy the pictures as much as i enjoyed them =)

jing and the pretty waitress.

at The Peak, the tram going down the hill or maybe its a mountain??

i love this shop so much... can u guess why i lov it so much??
one of the moment where the MTR is empty!!!!!!! it used to be always crowded!!
desert at the 'feng yue tang', its superb!!!!! i cant forget how tasty and yummy it was!

cheese!!!!! in the middle of the hustle and bustle road!
nice harbour view!!!

one of my favorite picture!!! haha.
look at our different expression!!!! haha..
its not a 'pou tong' tea, it's the nicest milk tea i ever had!!!! mou de deng!
i'm hungry, where's my food!!!!!!!???????
y not camwhore a bit while waiting for food. lol
at the garden below the apartment! nice walk after our breakfast!
nice lake in the garden!
the typical Hong Kong breakfast
these are not my stuff. it's zong's stuff!!!! can u imagine mine?!

look nice but the food juz taste so...... i forced myself to finish them =(
rargh!!!!!! kill u.........

sweet memories.....

stop taking!! lol
hooray!!!!!!

cheese!
nice hot spicy soup with sth taste like luncheon meat..

zong's aunt and mom. they are really nice person!!!
nice yummy dimsum!

view in front of jon's apartment. nice nice nice

this is jon. and he looks so korean... lol

i really enjoy my life there....... miss those time. sigh, can time rewind for me? or maybe fast forward so tat i can see my baby as soon as possible!!??

ahh...... now i need to get back on my research and to- do- list! catch up with u guys in msn ok.

take care!

2009-02-17T01:22:00.000-08:00

i'm in somewhere sweet and nice.. with my baby =)

2009-02-08T10:28:00.000-08:00

hmm.... i just came back from JB. was having great time with the gurls there. i enjoyed my life there and yes, i spent money without any thoughts... hmm... its not a good thing!!! (coz i'm trying to change it.. but failed!><)

then, i met Zhong finally. he dint blaugh me and he did "sook sui". hahahahaha... he looks alot thinner and shorter.... not like the buff, tall guy i used to see... nevertheless, he's still the same, say me no need cost one(jiang ren bu yong ben)lol. i enjoyed spending time with old friends, coz there's never ending of gossips. hahahaha..

i reached home tired. thought of getting my shower as fast as possible so that i could spend more time talking to him. but then, a bad bad news came hit me without any mercy, I GOT TO MOVE OUT BY 18TH FEB 2009.

wat?! can this old fXXking lady repeat what she said?!
last month before i left Msia for cny celebration, i told her that i'm gonna pay the rent oni after i got my salary which is after cny and will be moving out on the 18th March 2009. i also told her that i would have a trip to Hongkong on 12th-20th Feb 2009. so, she knew it from the beggining of the month of january. i argued with her how the hell i'm gonna move all my stuff in these 3 days and i'll not be here on 18th!!!! she insisted that i have to leave by the date and she threatened me by saying that coz i've been paying the rent late. ok, she said she wanted 2months rental, so i agreed with her. and now she's asking me to move out and get another place with a dirty old reason,'her whole family will be moving out on that day too.' i'm like what?! and yes, she used the same reason on asking the previous tenant to move out too. she's fxxking cunning, and.... i juz dunno how to describe her (could u pls provide me some vocab??) i don wana waste my time and energy talking to some P...........gs. (chinese people would unders10 what i'm trying to say here as they are not indians)

they never save and yes, spend all the money they have. i admit that they are poor, but then they are not wise or maybe does not have the level of intelligence to even notice that there's actually government providing pensions for the poor here. my friends told me to seek a lawyer.. but i dont wanna watse any of my time and money on such people. and now, i unders10 why singapore can be so successful and not Msia. sigh, leaders do make a BIG differences.

ok, enough of complaining. and i'm really sorry of the rude word i used. i am freaking angry and frustrated and HELPLESS. Luckily i have my friends here, supporting me always! thanks!!!! =)

2009-02-06T09:34:00.000-08:00

hmm... its 1.34am now. juz finished watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.

its a nice love movie and it portrays how life isn't measured in minutes, but in moments. when u're in love, people make sacrifice and i believe i do too. but how can u tell when u're in love??u never know until u lose them or they leave us. this heartfelt story also tells me how precious a life is in a moment and we need to cherish every moment we got with the loved ones. because u never know what happens next and u'll definitely regret it if u dint do so.

i wanna cherish every moment that i have with u!! i miss u. =)

2009-01-30T05:59:00.000-08:00

today, i had a GREAT gathering of my life! it has been 8 years since some of us seen each other. really miss u guys!! this gathering consist of all my primary schoolmates. we were very close when we were YOUNG! we considered ourselves as the most mischievous children in the class and of course, we did our very best in making our teacher caned us and proud of us. time really flies and all of us now pursuing different directions and i'm really proud that i have such a bunch of awesome friends! hmm, u guys are unique, fun and loving. really dunno where i can ever get such friends again!

hey guys, i wanna upload the pics. but my mac got some problem. rargh!!!! i promise gonna upload them and try not to lose the picture if my macbook need to be formatted. sigh.... i'll try update them asap!!!

take care guys, and all the best in whatever endaevors.

2009-01-29T02:34:00.000-08:00

i'm so happy and u know why =)

2009-01-26T11:44:00.000-08:00

hehehehehe... i'm so happy today!!!!! went to Shirley's house, and it was a big reunion for me! lol. i was so excited to see my friends. lots of pictures taken and i'm gonna upload them sooner!!

happy chinese new year everyone!

2009-01-22T19:42:00.000-08:00

新年要來臨了。今年，我沒有以往的興奮。或許我身在褔中不知褔吧。也許經濟狀況，大家都不能像以前那樣開開心心辦年貨了。大家都盡量省，省得多少就多少。還有一個在煩著我的是大學的事。想了很久，終於知道自己要什麼了！我決定去德國深造，將來應該會出人頭地吧。選著德國含著很多不同的意義。也是我最好的選著之一。哈哈＝）

我喜歡上一個不知道該不該喜歡的人。每晚，我們都會談天，網上見面。我們身在異地，但我相信我們從來都不厭捲對方！4個小時的談話好像才談了一個小時。感覺又好像認識對方很久。甜死人了！哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。*^^* (希望他看不明喔，呵呵。。。)

待會兒，會去jusco 看電影，賣一些東西，逛逛。然後應該research有關德國深造消息吧。

我要充分利用每一天，你也一樣不要白过美好的一天。＝）

新年快樂！

2009-01-21T18:36:00.000-08:00

i'm back to Ipoh finally!!!

ok... mom nags... dad nags... and i really really....

miss them!! haha... i'm a weirdo. but somehow, that's wat i hate usually which makes me crave for it when i'm away from them.

2009-01-19T17:19:00.000-08:00

the picture was taken at Ikea. the blonde baby boy, Nicoli and his sis are from Norway. Look at Nicoli, how cute he is!!!!

2009-01-17T23:22:00.000-08:00

ok, the retarded one is the bthday boy. happy super belated birthday!!!!!! and the one on the right, is the emo kid, very very emo. i dont understand why, yea, he is the emo one. oh, btw, last night on the mrt, we were thinking of a catchphrase for the emo kid's manifesto. cant imagine such a low profile emo kid got elected. so, here's the result of it: are you savvy enough for savy?

hahaha.. it sounds stupid but i like the phrase.lol

then, here's a pic of me and the shortpig, Vivien. she's my junior, a mugger and a nice person. (vivien, u see, i said u're nice person!!!! hahahahahahahaha, so be nice to me!! hehehe) we went to paragon and had soupspoon.

then, we camwhored in the restroom.. coz, the lightning in the restroom is the best. haha. enjoy the pics!!

so yea, tats all for the day. tata. hav a nice day everyone! ciao~

2009-01-12T17:34:00.000-08:00

zong is coming back this thursday. woot woot.

but still i cant meet him till 12th February.=(

has been quite busy these few days. really wanna get out of all this and be wat i want.

2009-01-07T19:52:00.000-08:00

終於可以寫華文了！！！

這幾天都忙著工作，真的很累。

還要受氣！媽媽叫我不要幹了，干脆找別的工作。

生活一定要那麼苦馬？受夠了！

2009-01-04T08:37:00.000-08:00

omg.. i juz discover something!!!! people... if u r from chinese orchestra.. u must love this song!

2009-01-04T03:53:00.000-08:00

it was an unforgettable new year that i had for my life. i went to supperclub, which is really superb!!!!! i wanna go there again!!! besides clubbing, i've been very busy completing common application and researching on universities. its really really tiring and actually, brain killing.

dint do much after submitting my common application. i have taken a nice rest and planning to go for a thai massage. i need something to push me to work hard and to stop myself from pampering myself!!!!

anyway, went to hav light sushi and Ikea Restaurant and cafe. the place was crowded and one thing, i'm really impressed by the system that ikea is functioning. the place its no big different with a canteen. only that it is a much classy and has a higher standard of food compared to a canteen.lol.below is the strawberry smile i had.

an unagi maki. i dont really like the ingredients they put in...
nice carrot fruit juice... healthy!
shrimp salad... a swedish kinda recipe
swedish meat balls. omg... its so so delicious..... it's mixed with pork and beef

chewy and yummy!!!!!

went to an indian stalls and got this puri set. i juz miss indian's food!!!

coz they always smell nice =)

these few days, i'm dont know why i keep on craving for nice food. i told myself that i shld go on diet!!!!! but still, the more i wanna diet, the more i wanna food, food, NICE food!!!!!!

p.s.: anyone familiar with germany's education system?? or germany's university?? pls email me for any info. wything@gmail.com thanks!!! ;)

2008-12-30T03:36:00.000-08:00

it has been really long since i upload pics ..... and yea, lots of things happened this one month of holidays that i'm having now.i went to savvy's place to stay for internet access, went to sentosa in pajamas at around 2am, went to explore singapore nice food like katong laksa, yonghe beancurd and five stars hainanese chicken. also, i watched almost every movie that is showing now in the cinema, except Cliff 2 and IP man.

oh, and i went to en grill and bar. its a japanese bar with nice sashimi salad. i'm totally fell in love with it!!!

sashimi salad!!!! yummy...

udon noodle with miso soup...
hmm, i forgot the name of the drink.. but its mixed with sake and juices....

bora bora blu, a new recipe treated from the bar tender. its so refreshing after sake!!

can u see how delicate and meticulous the orange is... lol

if he fails to make a nice one, he will throw it away and do it again.. haha..

this is a homemade tofu from five star hainanese chicken restaurant

trying out a dress from Zara. i bought it!!! its so nice and fitting in front of Tangs before sending off mari and yx =)

love this pics alot!!! at marriott poolside.

so yea, i need to get back to my work now =( wish me luck. happy new year everyone!

2008-12-24T12:08:00.000-08:00

hey peeps, i juz realize that Miss Malaysia was top 30 in miss world!!!

big applaud to Wincci Soo. she's so talented and pretty.. she has beautiful voice and can speak 5languages!!!

click here to see how pretty she is!!!

2008-12-18T23:35:00.000-08:00

hav lots to express.. but i wanna express in chinese...

2008-12-17T01:24:00.001-08:00

merry christmas everyone!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-11T11:47:00.000-08:00

today, i totally slack myself off...hmm... but i juz like the way it is.. without any regret nor blaming myself.. i think its bcoz i love to spend time with my family and yea, family!! i enjoy every moment tat i spent in home with my parents, brothers and my dog, Lucky.

i dont wanna leave my home so fast.. really wanna stay here forever.. like this.. without any stress and all the shit of loneliness in Sg.

all and all... i love my family...

2008-12-10T09:20:00.000-08:00

these few days, i gained lots of thoughts. i really wanna to thank my family for their love and care for me. also, the unique family culture i have. the way we communicate daily and the way we show our loves to each other are really unbelievable. i truly enjoy and appreciate them! it has never been so enjoyable...

also, i wanna thanks all my friend for their support. without them, i wouldnt be so perfect! thank u!! (u know who u r, i dont need to mention u la.. lol)

stay happy!

2008-12-09T06:48:00.000-08:00

today, went out with some old friends. hmm.. its was a lot of fun!! miss them so much.. we took lots of pics and, yea, lots of crazy one. but i oni hav some at the moment. so yea... happy DAY!!!

i look like dead fish above.... =___=

we really need another gathering with more peeps!!!! c all u guys soon!!!! >_+

2008-12-03T23:04:00.000-08:00

at toa payoh central, i found a hawker's food which i can finally say: "yummy" in singapore.

it's Pontian Wanton noodles and the noodles are handmade. hmm.. i dunno how to describe the taste and the feeling when its in ur mouth! but, when they ask u whether u wan to mix chilli sauce into the noodle, say no! coz the taste is awful. thats what kills all singapore food!!!! can u imagine oni chilli sauce and ketchup sauce in the noodles?? wtf!!! i dont even dare to think about it.....

2008-11-30T11:33:00.000-08:00

gosh, i juz finished mt UC application. last minute thing really killing me. luckily its oni one uni. if not, i'm gonna died from it. hey, thanks alot for the help!!!

2008-11-28T05:13:00.000-08:00

i have learnt alot of stuff this few days.

money, hard to find, easy to spend.

time, hard to keep, easy to waste.

determination, hard to sustain, easy to loose down.

arh... i seriously need to be an order person.

met ppl that really inspire me... i really wanna change myself!!!

2008-11-26T09:32:00.001-08:00

just finished Beverly Hills Chihuahua its a good show for dog lovers!!!

2008-11-26T09:32:00.000-08:00

just finished Beverly Hills Chiwawa. its a good show for dog lovers!!!

2008-11-25T03:52:00.000-08:00

today, went to Marche with mom at vivo city. was having my brunch there. food not bad... and today, we dint really shop much. juz sent mom back to malaysia and now.. kinda lonely.. after 3days of her nagging. lol

2008-11-24T07:16:00.000-08:00

i felt like i'm the happiest girl in the world.. to hav such a niceeee family and mom!!!! lol.

bought lots of stuff today.. and tml gonna shop again!!! hahahahaha....

2008-11-23T08:36:00.000-08:00

mom and bro came singapore. so we shopped alot.. and hav great talks. since so long i havent been sitting down with loved ones and talked about our future. haha. except that we need to tell all we had discussed to daddy.

we took some pictures. and yea, tats all for the day. =)

night *^^*

a pic taken from mom's camera, she's my cousin!!! so cute!
so, happy holiday!!!

2008-11-20T06:48:00.000-08:00

i love you but I'm not in love with you.

Phrase used exclusively by shallow self-absorbed individuals who actually have no concept of what it means to love or be loved. Their hearts are vacant and usually associate sex not with a deeply emotional or spiritual experience but rather purely a physical and transient act involving no emotion. Such individuals are limited in both intellect and in normal socialization skills. People who use this overused cliche usually suffer from a combination of schizotypal disorder and sociopathy. A catch-all phrase when the person doing the dumping knows there is no reason for the relationship to end, other than for purely selfish reasons of wanting to pursue sexual relations with other individuals outside of the current relationship.

I love you but I'm not in love with you

from http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=I%20love%20you%20but%20I'm%20not%20in%20love%20with%20you

man, this phrase is so cheem... lol

2008-11-19T07:07:00.000-08:00

today, went to taiwan restaurant to hav our lunch. so, i took few pictures there. the food was real nice and it's really alot better than the food in singapore.

nice pudding milk tea and kiwi yakult...

special unagi maki in Kinsahi

me and yineng in Lush Bar@The Zon

my bro and the tower carlsberg that i juz managed to finish one glass. and yineng finished 3 glass.

san bei ji.. its damn nice!!

taiwanese style fried oyster

ma po la mian...yummy

2008-11-18T06:21:00.000-08:00

hello... my exam ended!!! finally.. am a free bird!! hooray.

so today, i moved all my stuff to my new roon and came to yineng's house.

she drove me around jb and we went for manicure!!!!

oh, and her mom is a great cooker! today, i had my dinner in the theme of curry. everything curry! curry chicken, curry fishhead, curry vege... and roasted chicken! yummy. had 2 bowls of rice. and now, i'm damn full here. lol.

hmm... once again, hello jb!

2008-11-13T09:13:00.000-08:00

omg, juz discovered something... which i wanted so much...

so guess wat is it??

haha... able to guess them?

3 chances.......

still cannot guess it huh? its not bag nor shoes.. its....

a designer phone from CHANEL CHOCO PHONE!!!! Designed by Fred de Garilhe... its so so attractive and sexy... man, i swear i'm gonna get them!!!!

2008-11-13T07:42:00.000-08:00

today we went to celebrate Aunty C's bdae. so, we went to have dinner at Peony Restaurant, Clarke Quay. have lots of fun, talks, gossips, silly jokes and FOODS!!!!! omg, i ate till my stomach bloated. this is why we shouldnt go for a buffer... coz u pay money to let ur stomach suffer!!! hahahaha.. so yea, we took quite a few pics. (p.s.: the quality kinda sucky coz we use our handphone to take them, plus the poor lightning... so pls bear with it =))

hav a great night!!!! so yea, nites =)

2008-11-12T00:37:00.000-08:00

i screwed up my A level! dint perform at my max and optimum level. feel like killing myself.

rargh!!!!!!! keep on consoling myself that A level is not everything but, in fact, it is!!!!! wtf.

gonna chiong for my coming SAT in dec 6.

i dunno where all my intelligence goes after i come to jc's life... return me my wisdom!!

2008-11-06T19:37:00.000-08:00

finally, i've sat for my math this morning.

woke up at 4am, then revise all the formulae...

wishing myself all the best, and kept on reminding not to be careless!!!! careless is the killer of my math paper.

no more math!!!! hooray!!!

time to prepare for my econs paper! *^^*

2008-11-02T21:03:00.000-08:00

finally, am done with General paper.. wah.. damn tough... crossing my fingers hoping that i'm gonna pass it this time round as it is my last GP in my whole life!!!!! should i be happy or sad.. but actually, kinda sad.. hmm... anyway, no time for emo-ness. gotta study for tml papers- physics paper 3 and math paper 1. die liao. 2 thing cram on the same day!!!! sian~

okok, ciao~

2008-11-02T07:32:00.000-08:00

so sick of studying GP. Memorizing whatever i can.

tml is the start of my A level. and also all my fellow friends.

all the best to all of u.

lets do our best and put them down!!

2008-10-31T10:52:00.000-07:00

hep peeps, here's a very cute video.. and muz watch!!!!!!! its juz too wasted if u dont watch them. trust me, i'll bet u'll like it!!!

2008-10-28T09:02:00.000-07:00

abit emo now... i hav gone through lots of thoughts these few days.

how do u feel when a friend has changed and no longer behave like he used to be and dint make u as his priority anymore.. sometimes, it juz hurts. it's not about the privilege and attention u received, but its respect and care that minds me. very true that when friends doesnt meet that often, the friendship tends to loosen and eventually the loop juz gyre.

i admit that i do take it for granted. but, it juz the way we communicate.isnt it?

hmm.. end of my emo.... i dont wan to think about it anymore.

2008-10-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

something to laugh, okok, it may not be funny to u.. but i laugh till my ass drop!

so, here's the incident.

in my hostel, there's 2 cleaners, one from Bangladesh and the other one from India.

one day, the aunty C, who is in charged of the canteen, packed lunch for them from the remains of breakfast.

so then, u see, the india worker is really poor and never eat Prawn before. so, he juz ate the packed food which had prawn in it.

few hours later, he got rashes and whole face swollen. so, he panicked. bcoz he though he's going to die. (u see, they are not educated and he doenst know that he is allergic to prawn!!)

then, he's collegue from Bangladesh saw it and said, "nono.. ur face swollen, no india adi!!!!"

after hearing those words, the india worker shivered and panicked... coz he thought he's going to die soon.

later, this bangladesh worker brought him to see the hostel management, Aunty S. then her 1st response was,"u're too dark, i cant see anything!!!! wat happened?"

so, finally, he was brought to a clinic and yea... he knew he is still alive!

hence, the moral of the story is... not to be so paranoia and education is so important!

2008-10-20T16:44:00.000-07:00

i had a nightmare last night.. in the nightmare, i hate my mom and youngest bro out of jealousy.

it was an undesirable and the most emotional, ordeal dream i ever had. of coz none of us want to be in such a situation where u hate ur loved ones so much!

last night, before i sleep, 2 of my hostelmates (hey, if u 2 see this, thank me for not saying u a P_ _HAHAHA) came to my room and requested me to do something really stupid that is to tie our hair into 2 pony tails (thanks to the little P_ _'s idea!!!!) we totally gone crazy with it and took few pictures on my laptop's Photobooth.

at that moment, we were all fugly.... so yea, need some cute thing to cover our face.

but, i left out the mouth part.. to let u guys imagine how idiotic we can be in the midst of our exam preparation!

so, yea... its another morning... happy studying and hav a nice day!

2008-10-19T05:48:00.000-07:00

ok.. i broke my own rule... surf net, see crap and chat crap... haha

ok.. so, i went out and study with my little piggy... @ TCC, Plaza Singapura.

b4 we go back, we went to try out yummy shaved ice with mixed fruits.

fuel to chiong.....

then, we ran out of power and head for some sugar rush!

so nice till we finished everything in 10 min!!!! LOLs.

we were kind of bored.. trust me, under stress, we can do sorts of stupid stuff...like sth above!!!! during our dinner in the dining hall..

2008-10-12T18:32:00.000-07:00

need to focus!!! so, discipline myself for not going to the net till exam over!

jiayou everyone!

2008-10-11T21:09:00.000-07:00

yesterday, we celebrated Leng Shiew's bdae at Central, Clarke Quay. so we camwhored and hav lots of nice food.. it was a really enjoyable saturday, despite our exams giving us all the stress.LOL. and yea, pls enjoy the pictures below. it's reverse... from the bottom till the top is the right sequence!!!! ENJOY!!!!! *^^*

so dao.... guess who?? but look better then not dao..

HAHA.. i ended the pic above... i shld be happy.. but i juz look like... haha... anyway, happy bdae Leng Shiew!!!!!

2008-10-11T09:48:00.000-07:00

SO TIRED... WILL UPLOAD ALL THE PICS LATER!!!

2008-10-10T05:10:00.000-07:00

after our graduation ceremony, we went to Lao Beijing to have our high tea. ordered lots of dim sum and u know wat, my class guys ate more than 20 basket of xiao long bao and fried dumpling. they really can eat.. A LOT!!!!!!!

then, we took pics =) but marie's camera ran out of battery. lucky i brought my instant camera. and yea, with that, we took more than 30pcs of pics. it was really fun. we joked and talked craps

hey guys, i really enjoyed the moment we spent. though we graduated, hope we all still keep in touch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

outside Novena Square

camwhore inside novena square.lol

cheese!!!

hmm... i wear legging.. coz i injured my knee.. and it is unglam to be seen!!!

one so extra la.... ><

at Lao Beijing

p.s.: Marie, i dint post ur so called ugly photo.... haha... see i'm so niceeeeee!!! haha

2008-10-09T22:25:00.000-07:00

today is the day that marks the end of my formal school life and the beginning of the journey as an young adult. for long i have been waiting this, thought it would be full of joy as i'm gonna say bye bye to all the restrictions and rules we had in school. however, the joy i have is all the achievements and friends that i made. i can feel the pinch of pain for all that i anticipated. i think i will miss the tutorials and lectures, break in the canteen with fellow classmates, skipping lessons, discussing stupid things with classmates and all other stupid stuffs that we did. very true, all these memories that we tend to forget or take it for granted, is something that we would love to remember for the rest of our lives, and perhaps the most meaningful moments that we had shared!

during the graduation ceremony, i cant believe I, myself attending it.i told to myself, after this, the next ceremony i'll be attending would be university welcome ceremony(if there is such thing)LOL.

UNIVERSITY!? it used to be a far far dream for me. and yes, i'm gonna go thru the torturing and hectic, demanding uni application process.

well, i've juz complete another chapter of my life. it's my time to make an excellent conclusion before i head on to start a new chapter.

hey peeps, all the best in A level and may u all ace everything!!!!!!

and for my friends already started the new chapter, all the best!!! (p.s.: zhong, i knew u have started urs early, perhaps, u're gonna end the new chapter i mentioned and sooner, u're gonna blend into the society and start another new life.... this mean.... u're so much older than us.. muahahahahahahaah... okok.. joking la) *^^*

so yea, stay happy always!

2008-10-06T21:02:00.000-07:00

hello....wanna share this(the article below) with all my friends =) this is so true and i hope something like that wont happen btw us!

cherish and treasure every moment together!!!!

老朋友見一次是一次

2008-10-05 15:04

隨手翻閱作家張曼娟多年前寫的書，“百年相思”，看到其中一句話令我徘徊良久：“……始終深信不移的，傾圮破滅；一直疑惑彷徨的，竟然能夠成就。得失難以計較。”

我們追求甚麼？

我們在乎甚麼？

我們相信甚麼？

當我們漸漸長大時，才體會到，原來我們常說的“永遠”，是一種虛妄的願望。年輕時以為自己可以掌握很多事情，可是年齡愈長，愈覺得自己的渺小和無能。

是不是我們年少時以為偉大的東西，在追求到了之後，覺得不過爾爾，反倒是當時我們認為不值一顧的小事情，反過來日日夜夜啃蝕我們的心？

還是像法國作家布紐爾說得：“世間只有一種東西是真實的，那就是遺忘，畢竟人對事物的熱情都是短暫的。”還是否如席幕蓉感慨的：“原來在這個紛紜雜亂的世間能夠保有一些不變的感覺和心情，其實是不可能的，歲月在變，周遭在變，自己本身也是逐漸緩慢地在改變……”

尤其這些年在全球化浪潮狂捲之下，從地景地貌到人情事物的改變更加快速，因此，生命中保持某些不變與舊有的老東西老朋友，對我們的情緒穩定是重要的，也可以照見我們的初心。

世事總無常

由於有許多老朋友這些年來都到全世界或者中國做生意，待在家鄉的時間不多，所以平常很難遇到，有位長輩曾說：“老朋友見一次是一次，不要以為大家都年輕，不要以為交通往來很方便，要知道世事無常。”他有一位讀大學時宿舍住一起，2人一起打工，一起啃同一顆饅頭腹的生死之交，長大之後，大家各自忙碌，雖然同樣住在一個城市，卻在他死後一年多才得知消息。

沒錯，許多我們以為輕而易舉可以做到的事，往往卻成為難以彌補的遺憾！

我們總是以為，昨天如此，今天如此，明天也一定會繼續如此。今天與朋友告別，我們以為不久一定可以再見到面，因為日子既然一天一天如此的來，當然也應該這樣一天一天地過去。昨天今天和明天，應該是沒有甚麼不同的，但是，就會有那麼一次，在我們轉身的一剎那，有的事情就是全不一樣了。在時空長河中，人類實在太渺小，永恒與瞬間，幾乎沒有差異。體會生命的無常，使我更珍惜當下的每一時刻，當下的每個因緣聚合。

和老朋友見一次面是一次。次次機會都要把握，都要珍惜，都要感恩！

是的，我願意空出時間，與老朋友訂下約會，然後用一種美麗的心情，赴約。

星洲日報‧文：李偉文‧2008.09.26

adapted from http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/84605?tid=3

2008-10-05T20:15:00.000-07:00

it was supposed to be a happy weekend. hmm.. i ended up bruising me knee and locking myself up to do the uni admission stuffs.

the bruise is really killing me. its swollen and my knee is utterly unglam!

not that only, i can even walk properly!!!! sian diao.. slippery is not a play play. it could kill anyone of us anytime... and i'm the unfortunate to bcome one of their victim. rargh!!!!!

mom and dad gonna scold me again for being so careless....

2008-10-02T04:56:00.001-07:00

the only one that i miss.. and i know i missed him...

2008-10-01T06:27:00.000-07:00

so, today.. went to meet my bro =)

and yea, met his gf and her family. it is a very happy family. and i really adore the way they communicate.... it's so sweet and nice...

anyway, it is nice that the whole family flew from Indonesia juz to visit their daughters. lol. so sweet and nice right!

so we went for steamboat for dinner ^^

and here's some of the pics we took

bear with the pics quality.. i know its sucks.. coz i dont hav a proper camera yet.. its taken from my instant camera then my phone.... lol

me and my bro

so u know which one is the gf right.. lol

2008-09-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

today, i'm absolutely in a good mood! my bro came down to singapore with his gf. then he brought me mommy's food!!! lol. i miss them so much. really had a fulfilling breakfast and the soup... yummy. nth is comparable with mommy's soup =)

and then, in the noon, mom called me. i tot it was sth important.

haha.. and u know wat, she called me juz to said that she bought a new phone and give up iphone.

so, here's the new phone she bought

tada!!!! its Samsung Omnia!!!!!

i never knew my mom is so updated. haha. i told her what for to get a phone that is so high tech.. coz she's not tech savvy... plus, she dont even sms alot. so, u can tell hw "good " mommy is in using a phone right.

haha... she then told me she like the design coz its touch screen and is very such similar to my LG Prada. i'm like... "okie.. but i thought u only use Nokia!!"

then she told me that, this phone is perfect for her, and she chosen this!!!

u see, my mom is so cute and funny!!!

oh yea, tml i'm gonna have dinner with my bro. with his gf's family. got invited by them =)

2008-09-27T20:41:00.000-07:00

less than 40 days to Alevel.

it's gonna determine my future.

2008-09-22T02:30:00.000-07:00

today after school, three of us had a nice talk. everything is bcoz of misunderstanding.

erm, its part and parcel in life. we could not avoid them but to face them by forgiving and forgetting.

hey, u 2 hot babes... thanks for all the understanding!!!!!

2008-09-21T03:34:00.000-07:00

hey jon and marie, i'm really ok with it. lets forget everything unhappy stuff kay =)

Marie, see u tml with a BIG smile!!!!

2008-09-20T06:57:00.000-07:00

happy birthday Glen. it was a nice bdae dinner but not with some nice "ppl".

sorry to say that. today, it supposed to be one of the awaited Happy evening. but things dint turn out the way i expected bcoz of a simple, demanding, rude, sweet message...

sweet is not meant for me but to the gurl....

okok. i arrived there and told yx about the message i received. and then Lihui. was instructed not to show to the gurl. so, i dint show and pretended that there's nothing. sadly, she dint believe me (yea, u're right for not believing me), then we tried to forget about this message and ask her to take out camera for camwhore since all of us dolled up!

she' angry coz i hide that message from her and she refused to use her camera. i'm like..... trying to persuade her and tell her not to be so xiao qi. but in the end, she still refused.

ok, as i was instructed not to force her something beyond her will, i stopped persuading her anymore. and got really pissed. isnt it my right to choose not to tell u? plus i was instructed not to tell u. ok, u may argue that u hav the right not to use the camera, but bcoz of the small matter and u forgone the sweet memories that we had, is a very stupid thing to do. u can choose not to take me, but others ppl may want to picture down this special evening.

i seriously think that u're really unreasonable. u see, if i tell u about the message (which i did after i leave the place) u're gonna to tell him right? so, wat u want me to do?? he asked me not to force u, but i think u could not be persuaded no matter what. so, the message actually is sth that ruined our evening!!!! FXXK! AND THERE'S NO FUCKING POINT TO SEND ME THE FUCKING MESSAGE! how i wished my phone no. were only accessible to message that i desired.

i'm sorry that i'm so rude, but i really cant stand the stubborness, the unforgiving attitude and the fact that using others stuff to make ur revenge of not getting sth u want. its utterly stupid.

i'm so upset and am really sad that why i hav such friend. i told myself that i need to accept who u r and forget all the silly stuff u made. i told myself that it may be juz sth u want to do to make urself feel good.... i told myself that i need to keep this friendship and not to ruin it. so, i'll cry it all out tonight and forget about it. i'm so upset that i vomit everything out! it was kinda torturing.

u think i'll be angry or upset that u dint allow me to stay over ur house?? ok, first, a friend will respect ur decision and will unders10 ur hardship. so, i nvr take into my heart about it. and actually, i was really ok about it. its juz a small matter. hw long hav u know me... i'm not the kind of ppl who angry easily.... (but the above incident, i really cant help it!)

then lihui and yx. i dunno whether i hav done sth wrong that u guys always go against me. maybe its a joke or anything. but the way u guys treated me, i felt so sad, betrayed and so stupid for protecting u guys and sided u guys when others gossip about u guys. maybe others are right about u guys. but still, i still ignored them and supported u guys!

perhaps, i'm too childish for u guys or i'm not up to standard to u guys. i seriously wanted to change class so badly and wish i never knew u guys. my heart is so broken and i hav nth to say, but leave the place early before my tears come out!

2008-09-16T04:30:00.000-07:00

Glen's bdae dinner coming this Saturday @ Millenia Walk, Outback Steakhouse. hmm.. gonna be a crazy party.lol.

2008-09-14T00:36:00.000-07:00

went to Clarke Quay and have fun with my gurls after our prelims. curfew destroyed my night. nevertheless, i enjoy every moment there!!!! great food, great place, great people and great laughter!!!!!

Yuxiang came!!!!

cheese!!!

sweet smile!!!

dunno when marie got this pic. lol

Marie took a pic of this hotty!!!! omg, he's damn hot kay!!!!

cute!!!!!!!!!!!

haha... i'm being crazy, i guess

like their decor alot!!!

taken by Marie, she said this is the best...

Lychee Martini... nice...

Peach and Lime Magarita... juz so so... not as good as i expected

haha.. lihui's back and me... i dunno what i'm doing.. yea.. marie took it

taken during our dinner at Hooters. it was mooncake festival celebration.

my salad!!!! yummy!

Grilled Salmon

somewhere in Clarke Quay

Clinic Bar, i'm so tempted to go here!!!

This is Marie

like this pic much!!!!!!!

gonna have more after A level!!!! cant wait i finish school and stay out of the boarding skol!!!! muahahahaha.. (evil laugh)

2008-09-12T10:55:00.000-07:00

hola everyone!!!

Prelims ended!!!! muahahahaha.. and am o excited. lol

life seems to be so slow when u hav nth to do and worry and stress...

but all this will come to an end in few days. (wake me up pls... coz i'm living in denial!!!)

nevertheless, live everyday like there's no tml!!! nightey

2008-09-11T02:54:00.000-07:00

Shanghai... Shanghai.. i'm coming.... =)

but 3 more months......